I've been thinking. Over the past few days as I was getting ready to come home from school. I had a lot of time to myself. I started thinking about the people i've hurt. The people I said things about in the heat of anger. I know i have a bad temper, when I feel like i've been wronged I snap and I don't hold back. That's something i've been working on all my life. Its something that I still try to work on day to day.
My birthday was a few weeks back. I turned 20 years old. I thought to myself i should try to reconnect with people i pushed out of my life when i was angry. I should reconnect with them and tell them that i am sorry.
I'm sorry i got mad.
I'm sorry i said the things i said.
I'm sorry i wrote things o public sites that other people could see.
I'm sorry, could you please forgive me.
I want to rebuild the relationship i broke.
I realized that i had no right to be mad. How i acted was wrong. I lost a friend, someone i looked up to because i was stubborn and hurt. I felt that i was being left behind and it hurt. I took my hurt out in the only way i thought i could. I kept it in side and thought over it. Then released it in ways that i thought would cause the most hurt.
What i really want to say is I apologies. I want to try and reconnect. Maybe try to work back to the way things were. I miss you i really do.
I understand that it will take time for you to forgive the wrongs that i did to you. I know that it will be a slow process of trying getting back to how things used to be. Thats ok i understand. It was my mistake. This happened because of me. I think now that i'm older. Im starting to grow and realize what i have done wrong.
I want to start my journey as an adult by righting all of my wrongs. So for all the different people in my life that i have hurt and pushed out of my life. I am truly sorry please forgive me.
Forgive me.
-Leah
